Letter of My Love.



Dear Grayson,
   I know you can't read this yet, but it will be waiting for you when you can. It's not the first time I will write to you and it won't be the last. I don't think I could ever express how much I love you and how big of a blessing you are to me. You have brought more joy into my life than I ever thought could be possible. You make me laugh and smile, you give me hope that my future is bright because you are in it, you make me cry (now this isn't always because you are being such a stinker), but because I get so overwhelmed with the love that you show me. I never knew that someone other than Our Creator could love me this much. I mean yeah, parents love you, but I don't think it's the same as the love you show me.
  I may have not done all the things right in my life, especially leading up to you, but I am going to try my best not to let you down. I know life will not be perfect for you, but I will do my best to make our adventure together wonderful. You are already so much like me it scares me! Let me just say you have a TEMPER! (we will blame Gigi instead of mom, we call it the Busch Blood), but let's not tell her I said that! You are so smart too and I like to think you got that from your Aunt Lou because if there was a genius in the family it is her. I hope you take after her on your academics because I have never been more proud of someone in my life when it comes to trying their hardest to be the best they can be. She is going to go far kid, so take after her! I know you will do just fine, but sometimes people need to be reminded. Please keep the love that you have for the simple things in life. Fancy things and lots of money don't amount to anything. I pray all the time that you will choose family over that, because I know too many people who don't and or didn't when they had the chance, but that story shouldn't be wrote to you because we have to be the bigger people.
  I know I'm supposed to be the example for you because I'm a parent, but sometimes I feel that I don't make a good one. I will be honest with you, my Faith has not been where it should be and I am so sorry for that. I can not lead you to Christ if I have drifted away, but I am working on that because I want you to follow in His example. You are a child of the One True King and I want you to grow up acting that way and knowing the bible and knowing Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior. Just know that I will be hard on you, but it will not be because I'm mean, it will be because I love you so much. I learned the lessons the hard way when I thought Gigi and Grumps were doing it just to be mean. If I didn't have them I would not be the parent I am today. Yes we will have our ups and downs, but there isn't a family our there who doesn't. Yes there will be days when you want to just run away (PLEASE DON'T) I don't want to have to send the cops out looking for you (; (also I have learned that running away never fixes the problem, it just creates a bigger one).
   All in all I just want you to know that my life has became so much better since you came into it. I love getting to spend every hour of every day with you and watching you learn new things. You really are my SUNSHINE on a cloudy day. I know that sounds cheesy and you will probably think that when you are able to understand what I'm saying to you, but don't ever doubt the words I say to you because they will always be true and from the heart. I'll be here for the skinned knees and owies, the rough days in school, your first heartbreak (don't rush this one okay? Let me keep you to myself for as long as possible), the times you get in trouble (I will scorn you a little, but I'll still be there), I'll be there when you get married and need advice, I'll be there when you have a child (HOLD OFF AS LONG AS POSSIBLE..please wait till after marriage), but most importantly I'll be there always till the day the Good Lord calls me home. (I know what you are thinking, am I ever going to get away from you mom?!) The answer is No! lol. Probably not.

  I will forever be grateful for you and forever be proud of you, no matter what you do. I could sit her and jabber to you all day, but you are waking up from your nap and that means it's time for me to get some hugs and kisses (yours are the best). So until next time, I love you to the moon and back and more than all the stars in the sky sweet boy.